These umber bar chairs
sit in a sequence before the bar
with cracked leather and bare
curved slats for support.
When I was moving out
I put my small only chair
in the
Which you won’t/
can’t/never will with your crow-
calling, bloom-cracking,
soul-tapping, house-toppling,
forty-nine years
enter
too young, too gone
The ivy is climbing away
from today but your words
cling
Perhaps the river, if it wanted to speak would
be deep-voiced, gravel drawled. Perhaps it would
be forgiving as the low fog that scarves
the valley redwoods. Our discretions
mutter – light rain whispering
Oh virgula my mark ; that offered a leash out of the party ; that offered its
own clearance out of misdiagnosis it is like ; give me permission
Your mother crouched on the patio chair
Afterward, your hands
looked criminal. But righteous machines,
the merciless clicking of clocks and cars
whirred on, faithful
to their warranties…
Blood mottled your mother’s moth-gouged sheets.
I had never wanted a